Has anyone ever said something to you, that without you even realizing it, changed the course of your life?
I did ~
The seed was planted.
“You have big thighs”……
Four words that carried such a great impact in my soul.
The seed was watered.
Watered by the thoughts and actions I took after it was said. Diets plagued me, exercise exhausted me. My mind tormented me. No matter how hard I tried, how low the number got on the scale, my thighs stayed the same. Big.
Other people came into my life and poured words over me like fertilizer for the soul.
A root began to form……
Rejection, self-hatred, bitterness, perfectionism. They all creeped in making their home in my heart. Never feeling “good enough”.
No matter how hard I tried I just couldn’t measure up to this invisible standard of how I should look that I created in my mind.
35 years after those words were spoken to me , God’s word is taking its place.
Colossians 2:6-7 ; And now just as you have accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord, you must continue to follow Him. v7. Let your roots grow down deep into Him, and let your lives be built on Him. Then your faith will grow strong in the truth you were taught, and you will overflow with Thankfulness.
I used to pray (beg) God ” Lord- take out this root that is deep within me” Now I pray, “Lord- CHOKE this root out of me”
As I seek God continually and build my life on Him, His word goes down deep in my soul and replaces what was once spoken, with His truth.
Jeremiah 29:13-14; If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. v14 “I will be found by you.” says the Lord. I will end your captivity and restore you.
He not only promises this for me but for my children as well. And the proof is in my oldest daughter. She amazes me!
My mama heart was so proud of her yesterday when she squatted and dead-lifted her personal best at her last high school powerlifting meet.( I have to add, she was the only girl competing that day). You see, she LOVES her thighs, and the bigger the better. For her they represent strength. A gift she says is from God just for her. I may have struggled, but I have not passed this on to my children. And that has made my journey worth every step of the way!
What was spoken to you? What step will you take today on your Journey to Freedom?
Any proud mama moments for you? The kind that leave you fighting back tears?